Positive frustrations

It's been years since I've had this feeling.. yung feeling ng nagwoworry ka kasi hell week na. I've been doing quite good this semester. actually this is one of my best semester (well next dun sa sem na naging College Scholar ako). pero eto ako ngayon worried na worried dahil ang daming requirements, well actually madami din akong time pero... ayun nahahaluan ng katamaran. Kapag mag-isa ako I always tell myself na it's about time to start ending of my college life. Ending not in the way that someone I knew defined. Ending na yun tipong grumraduate ako sa UP kasi natapos ko yung course at hindi dahil nadismiss ako or something. As far as i know chem lang ang iffinals ko pero yung requirements grabe matangkad pa ata sa akin pag pinagpatong-patong. Design, report, exam, assignment, design, powerpoint, written report, oral report, full report, exam... grabe nahihilo na ako.. nakakapagod, nakakastress (lalo na kung walang stress reliever), Minsan naiisip ko na this is just a waste of precious time na sana inispend ko na lang yung time na yun with my friends, nakakabadtrip pag minsan. Pero kapag nakita mo yung result ng pinaghirapan mo like you see a 1.0 somewhere in your test paper, pag sinabi ng instructor mo na "wag mo na baguhin yan uno na yan e", pag yung tipong kahit talo ka ng rival mo ok lang kasi lamang lang sya ng 1.5 points at kayo ang top 2 sa exams and the third placer is around 20-30 points behind, nakakatuwa. You feel so elated. parang feel mo na UP student ka talaga. Nakakasawa din maging bum, i've been a bum for like 7 years and this is the first time that I started and ended the semester seriously. Mahirap maging diligent, mahirap imaintain ang standing, mahirap makakuha ng uno sa classcard, pero UP student ako e walang mahirap mahirap sa amin. Nakakatamad lang :D